Somehow by the grace of God, this blog post was never published. It was a day consumed with finding out my children were calling their new step-mom "Mom," a lot of driving, coupled with speeding while driving...and Eminem. Hot damn, I was mad! It was therapeutic to get it out, and I think I've somehow benefitted from it. I did cry when I realized I had lost my beloved, enraged, albeit making-my-momma-proud type of blog post. I wept as I told Brian he would have been so proud of me because it was so...fucking... funny. And true! And heartfelt and painful and ... hmmm, maybe I'm not over it yet?! He turned to me and said, "Well sweetie, I think the benefit is in getting it out." And while it's taken me a full 2 months to feeeeel that wondrous benefit, I now ....do. And I'm now moving forward. And I've finally accepted that my career is not contingent upon these off-white dress blogs. Not one thing is contingent upon these off-white dress blogs. Except one. My sanity. And that friends, is oftentimes worth far more than a paycheck.